So here are some confessions I must share to purge my soul and start renewed again:
First (if you see my facebook's status' you already know this): I took a shower the other day and asked Danni to keep an eye on Enoch for 10 minutes. Usually they sit in the living room watching Sesame Street. When I came back down I realized Enoch was not in the living room, and the door that we normally keep locked that led to the downstairs bathroom was unlocked. I ran in, sure I'd find him splashing in the toilet, like he loves doing, but instead I found this:
It wasn't until the next day that I realized he could have easily fallen in head first and drowned. What do I do with this child? He climbs everything! He falls constantly and is hardly effected.
I have only canned once in my life, that was 15 years ago and I canned 2 jars of applesauce with the help of a friend, and we ate them later that week. So really I have no canning 'history'.
After getting detailed instruction from Mandy, her mom, and her sister I canned 2 bushels of peaches! Now I feel like a 'real' Mormon mom!
I have been very bad with my weight loss program, I think I just needed a little respite. I'm ready to get back on it again. Miraculously during these past two weeks of laziness I have still lost a pound a week.
I am lonely. For 20 years I have had full access to my husband. In Colorado his studio was behind the house, I could go visit anytime. Even when he was teaching or at his studio here in Muncie I could call him or stop by. Bill now works at Sallie Mae and it's a 'lock down' joint, no phones, no communication at all with the outside world once they're in. I suppose that's a good thing since they are handling a lot of personal information about people.
There are 2 people close to my age in my church. Not that age should stop friend ships, but just commonality. I haven't really felt like I can do the call and chat thing though. That's my fault, I haven't pursued 'girl friends' because I've had my very best friend available. Danni assures me that she's my friend, I appreciate that.
So now I need to get more active in the friendship area. How do I do this? Don't these bonds form naturally and without thought? I do have 'girl friends' that I still keep in contact in Colorado and Kansas where we lived. For some reason I'm more removed here, both physically and mentally. I've had some terrific friends that decide to move away, too many!
So as pitiful as this sounds, I need help! I did get back into the Muncie Moms discussions on the web, thanks to an email telling me about it. They are having a GNO (girls night out) in Sept. I don't know if I want to go, I don't know anybody, and I live so much differently than most women. But maybe I should.
Do you want to confess too? Go ahead, it will make me feel better;-)